The Dreaded Valentine's Day

I think I've talked about hating Valentine's Day before but since it's that time of year let's get back into it. I honestly can't remember the last time I had a good Valentine's Day where I took a date out and it was romantic and the conversation was great and went back to my place and did the night right. It just doesn't happen to me. Normally I have a speaking engagement where the only way I get a date is if they auction me off. So then I have to go on a blind date with a random girl I never met. The last time it happened I didn't even think the girl wanted to be there because I'd try to have a conversation but it was like pulling teeth. The poor girl was really shy and I tried to make her feel at ease with conversation but it just didn't work.

Who thought of this holiday anyway? Did this person want to make everyone feel like sh#t? Honestly, if a girl doesn't get a date she feels like sh#t. If a guy takes a girl out and spends a lot of money and doesn't get any he feels like sh#t. Why do we have this holiday? I hate asking girls out on dates in the first place and now they devoted a day where I feel pressured into asking. Then if I do get a date we have to wait 4 hours just to get a table at a restuarant. Then when we do get a table our order usually gets messed up because the waiter is swamped with people.

Don't get me wrong I like romance. I like meeting girls and taking them out to dinner but I don't think there needs to be a holiday for it. I guess I feel this way because I haven't found a girl that I truly like in a long time and I'm starting to believe that I will never meet her. And if I do meet her either me or her will mess it up. Every time I see couples I really don't know how they do it. Hell, I don't know how I ever had a girlfriend. I notice myself having a wandering eye all the time even when I like a girl and I can't help it. People always tell me that I'm young but I've been hearing this for years and I'm still the same way. Or I hear that you'll find a girl that will amaze you. Every time I hear that I think "nope" because I'm a grass is always greener type of guy. When I have a girlfriend I don't want to be in the relationship but when I don't have a girlfriend I want to be in one.

Right now, I think I'm going to focus on my career rather then worrying about a girl. Especially with how much I travel it's just not worth it. To those of you that like Valentine's Day I wish you the best. Let me know what you did or if you have a tradition or if someone did something really cool e-mail me I want to hear about it. Oh yeah, if you e-mail me and I don't get back to you don't think I didn't read it. I try to read them all. I hope all is well and Happy Valentine's Day to those that actually like the damn holiday.